I’m so sorry everyone! It has been waaaaay too long! I just wanted to let you all know what’s been going on and why I haven’t been posting hardly ever.
This year I have been struggling with what I thought was ADD (attentiondeficit disorder), so I went to a physicologist to see if that was the problem, and it was. Although, through that I also found out I have depression and anxiety. Can I just say what a fun combination Lol! Just kidding, but when I first told people about my mental illnesses, they didn’t believe me because I would hide it behind smiles and laughter. For me it was just easier to attempt to hide it rather than just tell people how I really felt, and what I was going thought.
If you’re wondering what it feels like to have depression and anxiety at the same time well let me tell you it’s not that fun. “Having them both at the same time is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure but you have no urge to be productive. It’s like wanting friends but hate socializing. It’s like wanting to be alone but not lonely. It’s caring about everything then caring about nothing it’s like feeling everything then feeling paralyzingly numb.” I found that quote off of tumblr, but it describes what I have been going through perfectly.
To get through this I luckily had such an amazing group of friends and family. I did have a rough time though, and cliche, I couldn’t have done anything myself. I don’t want to get too in-depth with what happened, but I just wanted to let you all know I’m coming back! And I’d like to get back into the groove of posting again (hopefully on Mondays at 4:00 pm eastern time zone) because it is one of the things that makse me very happy! Since I did this on man day I’m posting an actual makeup post on Tuesday so keep your eyes peeled!
All in all, I just wanted to say thank you for staying with me. And if you’re struggling with anything talk to someone please! More people will care than you probably think would :). Also if you want to know more about mental illnesses I know buzzfeed on YouTube always does such a great job with videos about all sorts of mental illnesses (not just depression and anxiety). Also let me know in the comments below what makes you happy! Also let me know if you want pictures/stories/details about my puppy I just got!
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